Rough Days

Have you ever had a rough day where everything just seems to hit you all at once and you feel like giving up? Trust me, I totally understand. That was me, last week Monday I was on the brink of a mental breakdown several times while at work. I was so frustrated with customers and with my work place in general, I had tears streaming down my face several times because I just could not get myself together.

My coworker and I were running a little bit late which threw off my routine. Before I start work I usually say a quick prayer for patience, strength, understanding and protection. After dealing with a couple of agitated customers I realized I hadn’t said my prayer. With my routine off, I felt like the day just went down hill from there. I called my mom during my break and was trying to explain how frustrated and annoyed I was. Expressing how I felt inadequate at my job, how I lacked the motivation and confidence to do the job I know how to do made me feel drained emotionally. After listening to me vent and express my feelings of whether or not I should stay at this job, she advised me to say another prayer. She went on to remind me that the irritation others are feeling has nothing to with me, but it’s just them. She reminded me that I don’t need to take on their feelings of frustrations, I don’t need to take it personal. She reminded me that I am adequate at my job. It’s just a rough couple of hours, but it’ll pass.

I really needed that reassurance because I do not hesitate to be the hype person for others. Always reminding them that they are loved, they are blessed, and that they can get through those hard times. This example of internalizing the negative energy of others is not me. It is not who I am, and I refuse to be that type of person. I need to take my own advice and be more confident, have more faith in myself and abilities. I need to constantly be aware that just as I remind others, I need to believe I am blessed, I am loved and I can get through hard times as well. These rough days are bound to happen, but how we react to them is what’s important.

The week went a lot better after that, in that moment of frustration all I really needed to do was take a couple of minutes to myself. Get myself centered, take some calming breaths and remember that it’s not me. Having that constant reminder that “I got this!” helps improve the mindset. I’ve learned that the more I practice my positive affirmations consistently, I tend to have that confidence to get through my trials. I just wanted to share this experience with you because I want you to always remember that  in those very trying and frustrating times that “YOU are amazing! YOU got this! And YOU can do hard things!”

– with lots of love to you, Ness?