One of the hardest things I struggle with is trusting in God’s timing. Accepting things I want can sometimes be different from what God wants for me. There were many times I had plans and ideas of how I wanted my life to be and, in my experience, God sat back and laughed. Almost everything I’ve had in mind for me has gone exactly the opposite way.
I cannot tell you how many times I was so frustrated because I couldn’t understand why things weren’t going right. And yet, time and time again, I still planned my life out they way I felt it should be going. It never occurred to me that things may not be working out because it wasn’t what God had in mind for me. I was continuously underestimating the power of God and how He always knows me. He knows all things and He knows what’s best for me.
It wasn’t until I was a having a conversation with a good friend of mine about how my life was going. After my failed attempts of planning out my life, I decided to just go with the flow. Whatever happens, happens. Planning my life wasn’t going the way I thought it was, I jinxed almost everything I’ve ever shared with others, and I was just tired of secretly hoping for good things to happen only to be let down.
This conversation made me realize a few things. First, things may not have been going my way because it was not aligned with what God has in store for me. I did not take the time to pray about my life and the decisions I wanted to make, and I didn’t take the time to really think each major decision through. Second, it never occurred to me that I wouldn’t be ready to accept the blessings I was praying for, or that I wasn’t ready for the life I so desperately had in mind for myself. It was eye opening for me, to say the least. Finally, if things don’t happen now, it doesn’t mean that God has forgotten us or that it won’t happen. It’s more likely that He wants us to rely on Him and TRUST in Him. God will bless us with the things we need when we take the time to align our needs with His plan for us.
God has been constant in my life. I could be so far away from Him but He never fails to keep me in His sights. He has never left me and He always continues to remind me of His presence. In the few times that I have felt that I had no other option, I would trust that God will make a way for me and He has ALWAYS come through. I guess I just wanted to say that even though it might be the hardest thing to do, trusting in God’s timing will always bless you. Whether it’s immediate, gradual, or delayed, He will help you.